Facets of Mercy

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Facets of Mercy

 

Betrayal are too painful for me to breathe.

Rejection are too sad for me to listen.

Judgement are too overwhelming for me to feel.

Guilt are too bitter for me to taste.

Violent world is too much for me to witness.

I just want to hide, surrender and waste away.

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Hey
Look inside
There’s a goddess
If you reach into your soul

 

A facet of mercy live within each of us.

Have we met?

Multiorgasmic

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multiorgasmic

 

Both my palms are pulsating. I dont even know when it started. Its almost like they are vibrating. What an unusual feeling that feels really good. Its like all the pores are breathing and humming deeply together. These sensations slowly spreads throughout both arms and towards my heart. Vortexes of pulsating energies gathered on my heart and both palms. I realised that i had this silly grin on my face that i cant seems to wipe off. The pulsating energies seems to be moving in waves. As the waves of energies hit a high, pleasurable moaning starts to come to life. It coupled into a synchronistic symphony with the pulsations. My heart and palm vortexes starts to open up like flower. It felt like i am basking in a continous flow of joyous energy.

Then i saw myself lying on a lush green field with plenty of little white daisy. Up above is a greek goddess serenading golden nectar of joy on me. She has beautiful blonde hair and a flower crown adorned with white daisies. The sun above her is so warm and bright that i cant open my eyes fully. Behind her stands a majestic greek temple and my heart tells me that it is my temple. I felt so touched and blessed by these abundance of estatic joy  and orgasmic pleasure that i wonder if this is just a dream. Well no matter if it is a dream or not a dream. A joy is a joy is a joy. An orgasm is an orgasm is an orgasm. Period. 😀

Self Worth

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self worth

 

Is a prostitute any less worthy then a president? 

If we break a human body down to the smallest bits. We get atoms.

Be it the prostitute or the president. They are all made out of the same fundamental component. Atoms.

Nuclear fussion is the splitting of an atom. The power unleashed is unfathomable. Imagine we each holds at least 7 billion billion billion of atoms. We all pack a potential beyond what anyone can imagine.

All man have the same unimaginable potential. Like all flowers of a tree. We all bloom at our each divine moment. There is no comparison possible in the eye of god.

We are unable to classified anyone’s worth because their potential is beyond our comprehension.

Remember. We are all are equally precious and equally important!!!

 

 

Below is an event that triggered my inner child issue of self worthiness. Its the narration of my parts in proccess.

Inner Child (reptilian) : I am so angry. How can someone whom vaguely knows me demean me out of no where?  That bitch is a terrible person.

Inner Guide: Relax kid. You need to cool down first.

Inner Child (reptilian) : She did a personal verbal attack on me. Who does she think she is? High and mighty? I am so gonna slam her face down.

Inner Guide: Your anger is not helping. Violence breeds violence. Returning violence with violence is never the way to a balance. For the better good please take deep breath ….

Inner Child (reptilian) : But…

Inner Guide: Breathe in ……. breathe out…… breathe in ……. breathe out…..

Inner Child (wounded): Ouch but its so painful.

Inner Guide: I hear you kid. Dont worry okay. We will get through this and heal it. Trust me.

Inner Child (wounded): Sob. I trust you.

Inner Guide: Where is the pain coming from? How do you feel?

Inner Child (wounded): I felt unworthy. I felt like my self worth have been degraded. Ouch.

Inner Guide: All man have unimaginable potential. Anyone’s worth cannot be classified based on human comparer because everyones potential are beyond human comprehensionRemember this truth and remember how beyond worthy you are.

Inner Child: That is true. But why does this person whom vaguely knows me attack me verbally in this way? Is she a sad and angry person without love in her heart?

Inner Guide: You see her actions have tiggered you to see your self worthiness issues within.  Because you are aware of the wound then can you heal it. For her to do that, she have to be here at that moment. Imagine out of the infinite possible universe of manifestation. She had to follow you all the way till that moment to prick into your awareness. So that you can realised your wound within and get it heal. Is that not love from her soul?

Inner Child: You mean that she have intended to help me see my wounding so that it can be healed?

Inner Guide: Yes. Her soul definitely have that intention. Although her human form may not be clear about it at the moment.

Inner Child: But why must she used such an offensive approach? Is a gentler approach not better?

Inner Guide: Well offer a thought that her inner state then maybe as such. And also maybe your issue is so deeply buried that such approach is required.

Inner Child: That does resonate. Oh mine, she must be in pain as well. I felt sorry for her too.

Inner Guide: How are you feeling now?

Inner Child:  I felt my heart opening. I felt thankful for her part for my healing. I felt sorry that she may be in pain. I felt that I want to love her more. 😀

Inner Guide: Return violence with love is a beautiful way to balance. Love breeds love :)

Inner Child: Dear guide i thank you for being with me. Blessing, guiding and loving me. I am indeed in the grace of love.

Inner Guide: 😀

 

 

Thank You Kwan Yin. Love you.

Truth of Death

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Truth of death (b&w)

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Truth of death (C)

 

I have always been fearful of death. My own death. Every time when I started thinking of that moment when I die, I will be so petrified by my avalanche of fear that my physical mind will kick me out of that thought. Thinking as if not thinking will be changing something.  Why am I so fearful? Is it the decomposing of my physical body? Or the burning of it?

我一直在害怕死亡. 我自己的死亡. 每当我开始想起我死的那一刻,恐惧会将我这思想踢出我脑袋.好像不想就会没这事. 为什么我这么害怕? 是因为死了我的身体的分解吗? 或者是害怕它的燃烧?

 

When I die. When my physical body have been burnt into ashes. I will become a void to the world. If I still witness the world moving on and I am a void witnessing the world moving on. This felt like an eternal jail of observing without participation. This is a scary thought. Isn’t this like eternal hell? Fear of death is fear of being here but not being here.

当我死了. 当我的身体被烧毁成灰烬时. 我会成为一个空白. 如果我还见证着世界的运行,没有身体而见证着世界的运行.这感觉就像没有参与只观察的一个永恒的监狱. 这是一个可怕的想法. 这不是像永久的地狱吗? 对死亡的恐惧似乎是害怕不在这里,但被锁在这里.

 

A friend’s recent passing has brought this topic to my mind.

最近一个朋友的往生又把这问题带来我的脑海.

 

Lying on bed and pondering over death. What is death?

躺在床上,琢磨死亡这问题.

 

Looking at the clock beside and the time is 9am. My consciousness started peeking behind my fear. Thinking, asking and hoping to get clarity about death.

看着旁边的时钟,时间是上午9点. 我的意识开始勇敢的看着我的恐惧. 想了解想知道死亡的真相.

 

Next moment I was consciously doing something else in another world. I am identified with my persona then doing my stuff in that world of mine.

下一刻,我有意识地在另一个世界做别的事情. 我确定当时的我在我的那个世界做我的东西.

 

Suddenly I awoke from my dream. I turn my head and saw the time is 9.30am. I am conscious of me (JT) falling into dreamland. I am conscious of me in another persona (DT) in the dreamland. And I am now conscious of me coming back into my persona (JT) here.

突然,我从梦中惊醒. 我看到的时间是上午9:30. 我意识到我( JT)落入梦乡. 我意识到我在梦境另一个角色(DT ). 而我现在意识到我回来了我的角色( JT)这里.

 

It is as if my consciousness travel without skipping a beat from JT to DT and back to JT. When I was DT I do not remember JT and when I am JT I vaguely remember DT.

这是仿佛是我的意识从JT跳过去到DT和从DT回跳过去到JT。当我是DT时我不记得JT,当我是JT时我依稀记不得DT.

 

A sudden knowing jolt me into excitement. Hey isn’t this the truth of death.

突然一股无名的兴奋勇上心头.这不就是死亡真相吗.

 

When I am DT, I only remember story of DT. When I am JT, I only remember story of JT. It is as if I am the consciousness that travel through worlds and assuming different persona of bodies experiencing that world.

当我是DT时 ,我只记得DT的故事. 当我是JT时 ,我也只记得JT的故事. 这好像是我的意识,穿梭于不同的世界旅行和承担不同的角色体验不同的世界.

 

The line where dream becomes wake land or wake land becomes dream land is the line of death.

在DT的现实世界于JT的现实世界之间的那条线不就是死亡线.

 

A line where consciousness slip from one side to another side. So graceful so easy so automatic.

一条我意识穿梭于不同世界不同的角色的线. 那么容易因那么简单.

 

Hey if this is death I am not afraid anymore. Something is lifted in me. My baggage of fearing death may have been enlightened and relieve in a certain sense.

如果这是死,我不怕了. 害怕死亡的感觉已减少了,并在一定意义上缓解了.

 

A sudden joy came into me. I felt that this conscious experience has gifted me a different eye about death.

突然有一股无名喜悦. 我觉得这个有意识的经历赐予我对死亡不同的看法.

 

Fearing death is like trapping our consciousness on either side of dream land or wake land when we have not even reaches that line.

担心死亡就像是把我们的意识钉死.

 

It’s a silly self-created pain trap imagining the line of death is the loss of our consciousness awhile we observe on.

以为死亡带来的是没有身体的意识状态.这是一个愚蠢的自我创造的疼痛陷阱想.

 

The truth is that we automatically transit our consciousness from one world to another world. From dreamland to wake land or wake land to dream land. This land to other land or to many land.

事实是,我们自动迁移我们的意识从一个世界到另一个世界. 从这个世界到那个世界.

 

Sometimes knowing and not really remembering. Sometimes not knowing and sometimes knowing it all of what beautiful life we have lead on the other side.

前世的事故有些没有真正记住, 有些完全真正记住, 有些完全没记住.

 

Our conscious on our dreamland is the conscious of our wake land. It’s the eternal soul that travels through all the magical world of spirit.

我们在梦境的意识也是我们醒时的意识. 我们的意识是我们的灵魂. 穿梭于不同世界不同的角色的大我.

 

Being fearful of death isn’t it the trap that stop one from living this moment. The real moment is where our consciousness resides.

怕死亡.是一个阻止我们意识活在当下的陷阱. 当下是我们意识的最佳地点.

 

Living this moment on where the real magic is.

当下是我们意识点石成金的最佳地点.

 

Death is like waking up to a world and sleeping into another world. Nothing is lost. Consciousness goes on. The physicality of the worlds is gone but only for this moment where our consciousness is on another plane witnessing another magic of that world. Consciousness goes on.

死亡就像是醒来的世界和睡眠时进入了另一个世界. 不会丢失. 我们意识就是我们不灭的灵魂. 之前世界的肉体消失了,但只在这个时刻,我们的意识只是到另一个世界另一个肉体目睹游玩.
The death fear melt away like an ice cream under the burning sun.

死亡的恐惧融化像烈日下的冰淇淋

Love this moment.

喜欢这一刻

 

Gratitude to divine’s gift of clarity.

感谢神圣的恩典.

 

Strength of Life

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Strength of life

 

The bathroom sink.

Our daily place of waste disposal.

Brushing teeth, washing hands and face.

Our daily ritual of clearing our unwanted down the waste of the sink.

Deep within the dark alley of the waste, is the remains of unwanted unloved stuff.

The place of death where life is unthinkable.

浴室水槽。

我们每天处置废物的地方。

刷牙,洗手和洗脸。

每天清理掉我们污垢的水槽。

水槽的黑暗深处,是我们不需要的污垢的遗体。

这是个生活不可想象的地方。没有爱。

 

And yet a plant grew from the remains of death.

Yes it grew from the remains of death.

Yes it grew out of the dark alley and popping it’s head in search of light.

I am in awe with it’s strength of life.

然而,植物从这死亡的地方长出。

是的,它从没有爱的地方增长。

是的,它从黑暗处找到曙光。

我敬畏与它的生命力。

 

I ponder at it’s journey.

Did it cried in fear when everything seems like death and when there is no clarity?

Did it just trust it’s instinct or it’s life purpose?

Growing as accord to it’s purpose of finding light out of the waste of the sink.

At times it must have been crying in fear during the darkness in the alley of the waste. Feeling lost.

At times it must have been brave in spite of fear through the death zone. Trusting inner guidance.

我想。

生活在黑暗中看不到前方时,它有没有因恐惧而哭?

它是不是只靠着相信它的本能?

寻找出水槽外曙光的史命。

失落时它因该也是在恐惧中哭泣。

有时它因该也是勇敢的相信内心的指引。

 

It has found light and it’s a major celebration. A pat on the back for it’s hero’s journey.

It’s journey that found life and radiating life lessons for the other being that witness it’s moment of triumph.

I for one have been touched by it’s teaching of life lesson.

Small yet almighty. I give thanks to it for the teaching.

它已经发现了曙光,这是一个庆祝的时刻。它的英雄之旅很赞。

它的生命旅程,带给它生命也带给见证它的人们的教诲。

我已经被它生命旅程感动。

它虽小但巨大。我感谢它的教诲。

 

It may survive longer or it may not.

Importantly it has already bring lessons so great to many that it may not even know.

The seed of life have already blossom into the flower of life.

For now I smile to it in celebration of this moment of triumph.

May what will be will be. 😀

不知道它还可能存活多久。

重要的是它已经带来如此之大的教诲,它可能都不知道。

生命的种子已经成长为生命之花。

这一刻我向它的胜利微笑。

随缘吧!:D

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Leap Whale

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leap whale

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leap whale BnW

 

 

The standard calender that most of the world are using today is call the Gregorian calender. 1 calender year is the time that takes earth to orbit around the sun. As the true timing of earth’s orbit around the sun is 365.256 days instead of 365 days, Gregorian calendar compensate this by having a leap year.  A Leap year happen roughly once in every 4 years where an additional day will be added. 29 February is the leap day that is added to bring us back to the true timing of Now. Calender a man made device to sync with the timing of the celestial movement. Is this moment not unlike an ego coming in sync with divinity.

On a leap year and during a leap day when a breaching humpback whale from the sea of emotion leaps out into a physical manifestation. It brings it’s motto of “honouring your life purpose” into the true moment. The moment where perceived time is calibrated to the precise moment as accord to the celestial dance of mother earth and father sun. The birth of “honouring truth, consciousness and clarity” is in the divine time of NOW.

May this beautiful & soulful being bring forth divine strength for the journey of abyssal truth in the Now.

 

 

Amnesia

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Amnesia

 

Goldie’s only goal is to attain a perfect life.

She is one focus and hard working goldfish.

It had brought her a perfect life as advertised.

Lying on her lush mattress, sun tanning and sipping on her favourite drink.

She ponder, ” Why do I feel so dry?”

Mmmmh….

 

Healing

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Healing Light

 

I am good & I am done.

The healing work before brings me calm.

More healing will be fun.

Hope for healing & blessing to come.

 

Hey why is there a tinge of anger in my air.

Hey why is there a pool of jealousy drowning me.

Hey why is there an army of insecurities breaking me.

Help am I in living hell…

Arrghh…..

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An angel appeared before I died.

She look at me with assuring eyes.

“Healing light let one see our shit around.”

“Do cleansing on those shit found.”

“Till the shit are cleared will a greater light be shone.”

“Then comes more shit where one have not yet found.”

“To the day when one have cleanse all ground.”

 

Here we go again :)

 

 

 

 

 

Heart truth

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Abyssal truth

 

Following your heart. What does it mean?

Other then listening totally to our mind’s chattering logic to act out life. One should place more emphasis on the emotions of our heart and acting life through it.

 

Listen to your heart. Can the heart talk?

Our heart talk in the language of emotions. As most are used to the sensation of our mind thinking, feeling our heart’s talk may be like getting used to a foreign language. Constant awareness of the sadness and joy that arises from the heart integrates our knowing on what it wants. In time this will be a second nature to oneself.

 

Why is listening to our heart talk important?

Our heart intricately links to our soul, it talks the language of our soul. The intelligence is divine for the soul purpose of our life time. Directed by one’s inner divine intelligences is a way to one’s own life purpose. Everyone’s life purpose is different and it is already there in you. Seeking within is the true way to lead a real life according to our soul’s plan.

 

Living out of sync with our heart truth?

Ever had a moment in life that a truth in you will triggered the people around, shake the current relationship with close one or even rock our love ones?

One can deny their own truth by sticking with the flow of society norm, cultural standard or basic protocol of human conduct. So that one conform to masses acceptance and pleasing the world around them, in the hope that they will not be wrong. The fear of being wrong is so huge that they deny the reality in their heart. This seems to be an easier path for a start but it may be a hollow one as one cannot feel truly fulfilled.

Denying the truth from our heart in a way deny ourself in totality. A person that deny themselves denies their real existences hence dis-empowering  their own power of their authenticity. A self dis-empowered person is like a zombie in life as they are not in total connection to their soul. And hence they will not be on the path of their soul’s purpose.

 

Living in sync with our heart truth?

Being living in sync with our heart’s truth set one on a journey towards one’s soul purpose. This journey will come with moment of fear and contentment, sadness and joy, high and low. This is be like an adventure trip that our soul have sign on this package of life.

The difficult moment of the journey comes when following our heart means rocking others’ life. With one’s truest intent of authenticity and compassion. One may need to bared through our barrier of huge fear and pain to stand tall for one’s truth. Proudly be in the skin of who we are truly. The never ending challenge, learning and fulfilment will be the ride of our life. Real fulfilment will be the rewarding juice that nourishes  our soul.

 

Abyssal truth?

Communicate truth under the depth of abyssal pressure. (True strength).

 

Garuda

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Garuda

 

In the world of gods and demi gods. In a society of advance civilisation, living at the fore front of evolution. At the peak of consciousness awakening in all of the universe, we are just one step shy of total awakening. I am the captain of the elite team of protector. Protector for our civilisation, our people and our king.

Today is an extremely joyous day as we reach a new frontier in our evolutionary advancement. We are unveiling our state of the art new fighter spacecraft to the universe. This new spacecraft once merge with a pilot will have the energy capacity of the sun. Imagine the full power of the sun being directed by a single pilot. This will be a showcase of the awesome advancement of our civilisation. I feel so proud to be a part of this.

My moment of blissful thoughts was being jolted to the present moment from a sudden sounding of a messenger. The messenger came forth to inform that our King had called for me.

The interior of the King’s palace is adorn with intricate architecture of gold and silver. The opulence and extravagance of the design and sheer magnitude exudes the sense of awe to all. My King is already at his throne awaiting. I reached before him and kneel in respect to his sacredness.

“Raised Captain, you have been chosen to pilot our newest spacecraft codename GARUDA.” “You are to showcase our pride on our civilisation’s evolutionary advancement to all of the universe.” “Go forth and do me proud, captain.” Said the King.

Then I was brought to the golden chamber hosting GARUDA, it is there shining with great pride. I was touched by the grace of my King bestowing the greatest gift of my life. To merge and pilot GARUDA is the greatest honour that anyone in our land can have. That moment I vowed to protect, serve and do honour for my King, my people and our civilisation with my all of my life and soul.

I places my hand on GARUDA and it opens up a portal for me. I went inside to allow merging to be initiated. Immediately the surged of power going through all of my different levels of body got me totally overwhelmed. The intensity of its potential  is wildly beyond my wildest imagination. My physical, emotional, mental, astral, etheric, celestial and ketheric body went into a power overwhelming state. The merging brought to me the true knowing of the magnitude of real power of the sun. Our merging took the longest while and finally we are ready to showcase the pride of our civilisation. I am ready.

In the speed of light I have surge out of our homeland towards the sun. The sheer mass and power of the sun felt intimidating. But the surge of power within GARUDA is so overwhelming that everything seems possible. We decided to shut down the sun’s light for a fleeting moment to showcase to the universe of our evolutionary advancement. I will gather all the power within GARUDA to stop all of the sun’s light ray for a moment. It took a long moment for me to fully charged up GARUDA and when it hit peak power. We unleashed a thunder bolt of energy so intensely powerful that it stop all of the sun’s ray from shining out. That instance the sun turn pitch black.

It work. A huge sense of honour runs through my body, shining the pride of our civilisation. As celebration of achievement and pride run through my mind, I saw energy cracks appearing in the black sun. This phenomenon does not look right. My eyes are wide open as the sun exploded. The explosion is so loud that I am deaf to it. The explosion is so bright that I am blinded to it. Time starts to slow down as I witness the destruction of the sun, the explosion also destroyed the planets around and even my homeland. Everything is destroyed, my homeland, civilisation, people and King. Death is everywhere. As I float motionlessly in space a black hole of guilt, sorrow and hollowness chokes me awake.

Suddenly my eyes are wide open realising that I was awaken from an intense dream.